liz

god i'm pathetic

2009-04-02T16:04:35Z

i'm an expired leftover. too rotten to unwrap, but too disgusting to touch and throw away. and when you close the fridge door, leaving me in the dark, her photos hang for all to devour. i marinate in the cold.

guadalamary @ 2009-02-08T18:44:00

2009-02-09T00:45:23Z

i'm crawling through the desert
without water or love
i'm crawling through the desert
without water or love
then it starts to rain
big buckets of rain
so i open my mouth
for a kiss
and to drink the rain
but it's just an illusion
oh it's just an illusion
yeah love's just an illusion
that keeps you crawling through the desert

guadalamary @ 2008-12-27T18:07:00

2008-12-28T00:07:50Z

he's home for hanukkah.

guadalamary @ 2008-11-01T00:58:00

2008-11-01T06:00:28Z

the girl has to be penetrated and eventually use her inner space as a container.

is that life?
if it is do i want to live it?
i don't want to be touched by anyone.
ever again.

guadalamary @ 2008-09-23T16:24:00

2008-09-23T21:27:34Z

rebound chick. that's all i am. i fuck em and they realize how great they had it. i am the most powerful couple's therapy. if you feel like you're falling out of love call 507-269-2562 and i'll fix you up.

guadalamary @ 2008-07-27T14:18:00

2008-07-27T19:18:54Z

i just realized
you can't wash bruises off.

guadalamary @ 2008-03-17T00:30:00

2008-03-17T05:33:23Z

i traded my soulmate for the devil
in disguise.
i left my herd for a wolf
with starving eyes.

i switched kisses on the forehead for pinches on the ass
and bitemarks on the thighs.

i think i've been listening to too much country.

control.

2008-03-14T21:53:32Z

if it's not your way, i'm the one who has to pay.
and i'm sick of it. and you.

happy birthday.

2008-03-08T08:39:42Z

you're right. i'm cheap and easy.
you're champagne.
and i'm budweiser.

sad huh?

2008-03-05T05:37:52Z

guadalamary @ 2008-03-04T19:37:00

2008-03-05T01:39:53Z

hey little boy is your momma home
did she go away and leave you all alone?
i got a bad desire
i'm on fire

tell me now baby is she good to you
can she do to you the things that i do?
i can take you higher
i'm on fire

sometimes it's like someone took a knife baby
edgy and dull and cut a six-inch valley
through the middle of my soul

at night i wake up with the sheets soaking wet
and a freight train running through the
middle of my head
only you can cool my desire
i'm on fire

weeping willow

2008-02-28T04:51:18Z

cancerous child
with wispy hair
and embarrassed stare.

thank you for making me realize
you are more important than beauty.

guadalamary @ 2008-02-26T09:35:00

2008-02-26T15:39:14Z

my feelings for you seem to have been built by carnies.
swaggering, rickety, and unstable.
and i'm as piss-pantsed scared as a kid on a rollercoaster.

fuckfuckjealousy

2008-02-23T07:19:00Z

and now you see her.
and you're thinking what the fuck did i give up?
and i'm thinking when will it be over?

guadalamary @ 2008-02-21T13:17:00

2008-02-21T19:20:42Z

all my friend(s) are going death
and breathing's just a waste of breath

guadalamary @ 2008-02-20T11:45:00

2008-02-20T17:47:13Z

i am the biggest mistake my parents have ever made.
they just don't know it yet.
they are always so fucking god damned supportive of everything i do.
so i don't change.
i have no need to rebel. but i do it anyways.
what do i have to prove?
good job. you raised me right?

they have given me my life and i have taken it with closed eyes and shaking palms.

a long time ago we used to be friends.

2008-02-19T02:35:39Z

i'm the single at the bachlorette party.
i've missed the party bus.

and they're not coming back.

guadalamary @ 2008-02-14T16:14:00

2008-02-14T22:14:56Z

three years ago today.
i remember.

guadalamary @ 2008-02-12T22:39:00

2008-02-13T04:40:10Z

it must be love
if i feel this heartbroken.

guadalamary @ 2008-02-08T00:45:00

2008-02-08T06:45:58Z

fuck fuck fuck i hate myself

the only thing on my mind (and on someone else's)

2008-02-04T03:55:05Z

charlie charlie charlie charlie charlie charlie charlie charlie charlie charlie charlie charlie charlie charlie charlie charlie charlie charlie charlie charlie charlie charlie charlie charlie charlie charlie charlie charlie charlie charlie charlie charlie charlie charlie charlie charlie charlie charlie charlie charlie charlie charlie charlie charlie charlie charlie charlie charlie charlie charlie charlie charlie charlie charlie charlie charlie charlie charlie charlie charlie
horse.

guadalamary @ 2008-01-30T13:06:00

2008-01-30T19:09:21Z

The 50 million-dollar fetish character (Van Gogh) is an index of visual accretion, that is, of alienated sensual labor resultant from the mass mediation of the unique work of art. All that looking sticks to the canvas and increases its value.

guadalamary @ 2008-01-28T13:21:00

2008-01-28T19:22:51Z

there is no promise greater than blood on paper.

school really really sucks

guadalamary @ 2008-01-20T20:43:00

2008-01-21T02:57:06Z

nothing has changed and i am beginning to believe nothing will.

i am thirteen years old again when i wink had enough power to make me fall in love with a monster.

looking for an affair?

2008-01-11T15:28:55Z

"i can't believe how drunk i've gotten sometimes. like, no offense, around two years ago."
i can't stop dwelling on the little slips of the tongue. fuck, freud was as jealous as me.

therapy in six days. hope they fix me up. woop woop.